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From
the very beginning, Acid Enema was in constant evolution. I chose the name at
the time because I honestly didn't think I would get anywhere. Here was a
ridiculous name to go along with my ridiculous music that was complete trash at
best. As I started to progress and make inroads to create a better sound, I
found that I could not get rid of the name, even though I knew I should. So Acid
Enema evolved from straightforward hardcore, to speedcore, a period where I
created breakcore, then deathcore, and eventually, leading to a black metal
recording that was released as a split with Xasthur.
At
this point, my life had a turning point. Life became good for once. I had
married my wife after 3 years of dating, and my son was born in 2001. I had no
more use for Acid Enema. I was finally rid of the ridiculous name, the terrible
music I created, and I disappeared from both the extreme electronics scene and
the black metal scene. I really felt like there was no room for me anyhow in the
extreme electronics scene. I was (and still am) into the 4/4 hardcore patterns
and distorted 909 bassdrums, while it seems that everyone else had moved on to
broken beat, breakcore, IDM, or other forms that were more
"intelligent". I felt I was a relic of the old scene and had no place
there, so I cut off contact with everyone. While black metal itself is always a
form of music that will appeal to me because of sheer darkness and despair the
music radiates, the "scene" itself was full of morons that I could do
without.
I had not touched an instrument or music software for 2 years, and I
didn't intend to. Any messages regarding Acid Enema were all ignored. It is not
that I was ashamed of my previous work, but they were associated with bad times
in my life that I didn't want to be reminded of. In Life had taken a small turn
for the worse in 2002 when I became injured at work and became temporarily
disabled. Then, in 2003, while still out from work and receiving a pittance in
disability payment, I started to become ill with pancreatic attacks. For over
half of 2003 my health and weight started to decline as I had to keep making
multiple trips to the emergency room as well as extended stays in the hospital.
I was kept on a constant prescription of demerol that not only numbed the left
side of my body from much sensation for weeks at a time, but also caused violent
nightmares as a side effect. Eventually surgery was performed, and I was slowly
gaining weight and getting my health back to decent state.
Still on disability,
and feeling physically and emotionally drained from my health problems, I was
not ready for the next tragedy in my life. On June 30th, 2003, my grandfather
had passed away. His death was not only devastating to me, but to my family. I
knew his death was inevitable - he had been in and out of the hospital several
times in the months beforehand, but what haunted me most was that I could not
bring myself to see him in intensive care, or in a drug induced coma. I didn't
want my last remembrance of him alive to be that way. I wanted to remember him
as he was as I was growing up. After he passed away, I was overwhelmed with
guilt. I had let him down, I had not gone and seen him when I had the chance, to
be there for him when he needed family the most, as he was there for me and my
brothers, sisters, and cousins.
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I had no way to get rid of these feelings. I was
either going to drive myself insane festering on about it, or I would find some
way to alleviate the pain, frustration, anger, and depression. I began to make
music again, but this couldn't be Acid Enema anymore. This time around, the
music I would create would be more focused, slower, and somber in it's approach.
Sangre is a word that speaks to me. The Spanish word for Blood. Blood is the
essence of life, the liquid that courses through my veins, my family's veins,
and the same blood that my son will pass on to future generations. The 5 core
tracks that comprise "En Memoria" were created from his passing, and
deals exclusively with what I wanted to tell him but never had a chance to.
http://www.abhorrent-existence.com
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SANGRE/ACID ENEMA Discography :
Twelve inch releases:
Acid Enema - The Necro-Pedophile EP (Hardline Rekordingz H-line005) 1999
Acid Enema - Hymns of Hate (Widerstand Records WS-11) 2000
Sangre - En Memoria (Restroom Records Restroom12009) 2005
Seven inch releases
Minion/Acid Enema split - Shit! The movie (Scatology Records Scat001) 2000
Cassette releases
Acid Enema - Staring through the eyes of the dead (self released demo) 1997
Acid Enema - Dissection (self released) 1998
Gabber Speedkore Miliia/Acid Enema - Necrophiliac Relationships Vol. 1
(Necromancer Records) 1999
Acid Enema - Dissection (re-release, Necromancer Records) 1999
Acid Enema - King of Deception (Pandemonic Empire of Arts) 2002
Compact Disc releases
Xasthur/Acid Enema - Untitled split CD-R (self released) 2002
Xasthur/Acid Enema - Untitled split CD re-release (Total Holocaust Records,
includes bonus tracks from both bands) 2003
Sangre - demerol.promo.2004 (self released, limited to 20 copies for labels and
contacts only) 2004
Sangre - En Memoria (D-Trash Records DTRASH067) 2005
Various compilation contributions
Troops of Doom - S/T CD-EP (Necromancer Records, 3 inch CD)
Sound not fit for human consumption 2CD (Bad Taste)
Generation RX cassette (No Room for Talent)
This album was done in good taste... we just don't have any... 7 inch (xdiedenroutey)
Terrorpeutik - Session 1 CD (Degenerative Rekz, Sangre track used)
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